For the past year and a half Nigel and I have been living with a group of friends so that we could save our money and pay off our debt. To be exact over the past year and a half we've lived with 8 other adults, 3 kids, a dog and 4 cats. Though it was tough at times I can honestly say we are so grateful for the opportunity. We grew really close with our housemates. They were and still are family. But now that Caleb has arrived it was time for us to get our own place. During
Thanksgiving weekend, with the help of our "family" we moved to a condo in Chelmsford. We absolutely love it. It was so nice to have all of our own stuff back. We painted and decorated and really made it home. Of course the best part is we now have cable and DVR. Yes! Nigel has been watching all of his shows on the Discovery channel and I finally saw my first episode of John and Kate plus 8 on TLC.
My favorite time is at night, when the lights are dim; Caleb is settled and the four of us (can't forget about our cat Ty) are curled up on the couch watching TV together. Yeah....these are the good days.
Caleb is now 2 months old. I haven't dropped him or forgotten him anywhere; though I did have a brief moment of panic as I was driving to the store and looked in my rearview mirror to check the little guy out only to see that he wasn't there. I quickly realized that he was at home with Grammy.I'm not going to lie, the past 2 months have been tough...really tough. The first few weeks I was in a complete daze. I don't think I could have spelled my last name if you asked me. The last few weeks have been better. Honestly no one tells you the really hard stuff of having a baby. I don't know maybe it's just me, but I have a feeling I'm not alone. Let me start by saying I love my son, but I've been waiting for this magic bond that I thought was supposed to automatically be there between us. Most days I feel like he could care less who holds him or feeds him or changes his diaper; as long as it gets done. But seriously, I can't wait for the days when he lifts his hands up for me to hold him, or when a stranger enters the room and he immediately looks to me for reassurance or when he is really fussy and just wants his mom. I know those days will come. And I have to be really careful not to wish these early months away, but some days are just tough.He does make us laugh though. His favorite thing to do is wait until the opportune moment when you’re not paying attention and his 
diaper is off to pee all over you and himself. He got himself good in the eye the other day. It's a good thing his urine is sterile! He's growing so fast. At his last appointment he was 11lbs. That is a far cry from his preemie 5lbs 3oz. He's starting to get cute chubby little rolls on his legs and a double chin. I still stare at him and can't believe that Nigel and I made him. We get to know each other more and more every day. He's starting to be more aware of his surroundings. He stares at my face when I feed him; studying me and checking me out. When we drop him of at my mom's for a day I miss him terribly which makes me feel human. We're so blessed that he is healthy and thriving and I feel honored to be his mom. 
