I’m back on the blog wagon

It’s been a while since my last update. Life has just been crazy and blogging has taken a backseat to…well, everything else. I had a couple of friends and family members ask me if I was going to update the blog anytime soon which made me glad to know that people do read it. More than that it made me realize how much I enjoy writing it. It’s a bit of an outlet for me and I miss it; so I am going to do my best to take some time out of my busy schedule to update my blog on a regular basis. So check back often and feel free to send me a reminder if it’s been a while!

Music To My Ears

This is what I’ve been waiting for.

FINALLY!! Over the past few weeks Caleb has begun to smile, laugh out loud and attempt to grab things. He recognizes us and is becoming his own little person. It’s no secret the first 3 months were really difficult for me, but now I am thoroughly enjoying being a mom. We’re in a good routine which helps us both. Every night Nigel and I play with him for about an hour. It’s fun family time as well as stimulates Caleb and gets him tired and ready to sleep. We read to him and give him tummy time. He’s growing and soon we’ll be starting solids. Life is good.

2 months and we haven't broken him yet!

Caleb is now 2 months old. I haven't dropped him or forgotten him anywhere; though I did have a brief moment of panic as I was driving to the store and looked in my rearview mirror to check the little guy out only to see that he wasn't there. I quickly realized that he was at home with Grammy.I'm not going to lie, the past 2 months have been tough...really tough. The first few weeks I was in a complete daze. I don't think I could have spelled my last name if you asked me. The last few weeks have been better. Honestly no one tells you the really hard stuff of having a baby. I don't know maybe it's just me, but I have a feeling I'm not alone. Let me start by saying I love my son, but I've been waiting for this magic bond that I thought was supposed to automatically be there between us. Most days I feel like he could care less who holds him or feeds him or changes his diaper; as long as it gets done. But seriously, I can't wait for the days when he lifts his hands up for me to hold him, or when a stranger enters the room and he immediately looks to me for reassurance or when he is really fussy and just wants his mom. I know those days will come. And I have to be really careful not to wish these early months away, but some days are just tough.He does make us laugh though. His favorite thing to do is wait until the opportune moment when you’re not paying attention and his diaper is off to pee all over you and himself. He got himself good in the eye the other day. It's a good thing his urine is sterile! He's growing so fast. At his last appointment he was 11lbs. That is a far cry from his preemie 5lbs 3oz. He's starting to get cute chubby little rolls on his legs and a double chin. I still stare at him and can't believe that Nigel and I made him. We get to know each other more and more every day. He's starting to be more aware of his surroundings. He stares at my face when I feed him; studying me and checking me out. When we drop him of at my mom's for a day I miss him terribly which makes me feel human. We're so blessed that he is healthy and thriving and I feel honored to be his mom.

Movin' On Up!

For the past year and a half Nigel and I have been living with a group of friends so that we could save our money and pay off our debt. To be exact over the past year and a half we've lived with 8 other adults, 3 kids, a dog and 4 cats. Though it was tough at times I can honestly say we are so grateful for the opportunity. We grew really close with our housemates. They were and still are family. But now that Caleb has arrived it was time for us to get our own place. During Thanksgiving weekend, with the help of our "family" we moved to a condo in Chelmsford. We absolutely love it. It was so nice to have all of our own stuff back. We painted and decorated and really made it home. Of course the best part is we now have cable and DVR. Yes! Nigel has been watching all of his shows on the Discovery channel and I finally saw my first episode of John and Kate plus 8 on TLC.
My favorite time is at night, when the lights are dim; Caleb is settled and the four of us (can't forget about our cat Ty) are curled up on the couch watching TV together. Yeah....these are the good days.

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Beating the Baby Blues

These past 3 weeks have been exhilarating and exhausting. Nigel had to go back to work, so I've been on my own during the days and nights with Caleb. I am starting to adjust to the lack of sleep and am really enjoying getting to know him more and more every day.

Even though I've had a lot of help from family and friends, I still get overwhelmed sometimes. I've had a touch of the baby blues as my hormones continue to settle and I get used to this new life. I cry at the drop of a dime and freak out at the cat every now and then. Nigel has been so helpful and supportive. He checks in with me often and takes Caleb when he gets home from work so that I can have a break. Aside from doctor's appointments and one outing, I've basically stayed home with him every day. But today I decided to take him on his first walk. It was a beautiful day, so I bundled Caleb up and we set out for a nice walk to Dunkin Donuts and a stroll through the common. I can't tell you how good it felt to be outside. The leaves on the trees were beautiful shades of orange and yellow. We saw several squirrels and heard the birds sing. I breathed in the fresh air and immediately felt my sprits lift. We walked by a baseball field and I thought of how fun it will be for Nigel and I to go to Caleb's sporting events when he gets older. I ran into a friend who was riding his bike through the common and then made my way back home.

When I got home I felt so rejuvenated. I realized how important it is to get out of the house every now and then. This will be a bit challenging when the winter comes, but for now I'm taking advantaged of the weather while it is still nice out.

3 Weeks Old!!